So, I know . . . because I read Bonnie's advice . . . that when you're first starting a blog it's a good idea to do a post every other day or so for awhile to make sure people don't think you're one of the those blogs that started and fizzled.
I know it's been a few days . . . but please don't write me off, I'm still here!!!
I had some internet difficulties and then B and I had something we needed to work through and that took all of my time and attention last night. I was tempted to blog last night before he got home from work, to start just spilling thoughts out, but I realized that I want to be more careful than that with my thoughts. I can have any thoughts I want, and B has said that I am free to share good and bad thoughts here, but I don't want to be careless and I want to make sure he and I have worked through things before I start turning to anyone else. Babygirl said in a comment that she thinks it's good for me to look to Him first to set things right, and I agree. So last night, I held my peace until he and I could talk.
I'm not gonna give details, because it's one of those things that feels intimate in a different way than punishments or fantasies and honestly isn't all that interesting . . . there's no juicy details or anything. It was just a really difficult conversation about the importance of trust and only telling the truth. That's important always, but at the beginning of a long distance relationship, it's pretty crucial. We had a pitfall, we talked it through, and I do believe we are better than ever. Y'all are getting my thoughts at the very beginning of this journey. B and I haven't even met in person yet, although I think he's coming next weekend (feel free to pressure him in the comments and share your opinions on how very very VERY important it is for him to work it out to come), but anyway . . . I think some of the "trust" angst will go away with time as we grow closer.
Our conversation after the difficult one last night was really good. I think the fact that we made it out of the other side of that first conversation and decided we both still wanted to be "us" and make a go of this thing was very freeing. We talked about hopes and fantasies . . . what makes us tick and why (although I think my "why" is often just incoherent rambling). I may post some more about that later, but for now I just wanted to wave and say hello. I'm thankful you're still reading and I'll talk to you again in the next day or so.
His devoted one
P.S. Real life isn't always juicy . . . I'll try to do a more "exciting" post next.